Birthday Drama

So I was watching t.v. late last night.

Adult Swim to be exact.

They were saying something like,

"Happy President's day, when we pause Black History Month to celebrate some of the biggest slave owners"

I thought to myself that's pretty true.

Something to think about.

Anywho, I had a pretty interesting weekend.

Didn't do anything major just hung out most of the weekend.

Today is one of my good friend's birthday. 

She turned 21.

She wants me to celebrate with her tonight but I don't want to be tired tomorrow.

I have class and I have to work, I need all of the energy I can get.

She doesn't work tomorrow.

I'm just too nice to say I can't celebrate with her.

I'll probably say I have to be home early,

maybe she'll understand and see that it's the thought that counts and I showed respect by seeing her on her special day.

Wish me luck!

Sleeping In

I canNOT wait to sleep in tomorrow.

I have no work nor school.

I do have work tonight until 11

but that's not going to stop me from having a good night :)

Most likely I'll hang out with my "brotha from anotha motha"

Jonathan!

 But hmm what to do?

I mean I am getting out of work pretty late so I highly doubt anyone would want to go out.

Lol

But the good part is the sleeping in, I miss it so much!

Starships

Nicki Minaj - Starships

Powered by mp3skull.com This Nicki Minaj song I just posted has been on repeat since yesterday when I downloaded it. I'm not a HUGE fan of hers. But most of her songs are actually amazing to me. When she's rapping random words, that's when I don't really listen to her. When she's singing or she has like a club or pop beat or background, that's when you'll see me having a jam session. I love listening to her when I drive. I feel like I own the road. Is it even legal to have your music blasting while driving? I know it isn't safe, but is it illegal? ;) I always do it. Music is basically my life, I know everyone says that but I listen to music like 23/7 That other hour I'm probably sleeping or working. Actually I take that back because there's music playing in the store while I work. Without music, life would just be.. ehh.

Mean Customers

How was everyone's Valentine's Day?

Good?

Well I spent mine working all day :)

And proud of it

Like I mentioned before I'm now officially a Deli Clerk at Publix.

And yesterday I worked from 3 to 12.

Well at least that's what my schedule said. But I was able to get out at 11, 

which is when Publix closes.

It was pretty interesting. The people I was working with were really nice to me.

They understood I was completely new and they didn't put any pressure on me at all.

This one woman that I work with, I forget her name,

I felt she was rushing me a lot.

Her reason was because supposedly on Sundays 

the deli get's pretty hectic.

But I'm new!

& you're going to rush me using the meat slicer?!

You crazy?

She told me to hurry up a lot.

But I kept my mouth shut, as always.

Overall, I had a good day for my first day at work.

When it reached 11, it was like a beam of light came from the sky.

I was so excited to go home and literally jump in my bed.

Let's talk about the customers shall we.

Most of 'em grilled the crap out of me like the look on their face

looked like they were thinking "What are you doing back there?"

They probably thought I was like 12 or something.

But I bet I proved 'em wrong when I was cutting their meat.

But why can't customers see it like that.

I'M cutting their meat. I'M doing them a favor.

They don't seem pretty appreciated.

But I guess that's life.

 This one man was standing there, I walked up to him and said 

"Hello sir, can I get you anything?"

He just looked at me.

No smile, no smirk.

Just straight up staring at me.

I didn't know what to say so I was just looking at him.

Finally he said "Um I guess you can.."

My manager said "Don't worry I'm watching him."

So after I cut this rude man's meat,

My manager told me

"Kyle, do not let this guy get to you. Don't let anyone get to you.

Take your time, you're going to be getting a lot of a**holes for customers."

For the first three hours I was pretty nervous, I felt so pressured with the customers.

When I went on my lunch break, I called my friend.

I was basically venting to him telling him how I felt with the customers.

He told me 

"They're just people, like you and me. Don't worry, you'll get used to it and start realizing, You're the one cutting their meat. So even if they're being mean and rude, you can take your sweet time doing them a favor."

Makes sense to me. 

I guess it is just something I'm going to have to get used to, like everything else I start.

:)

No Valentine

Happy Tuesday.

Yes it's Valentines Day..

Well what do you know, no Valentine for me lol.

I actually never had a "real" Valentine before

Yes I've been asked to be someone's Valentine before, people that are not of my interest if you know what I mean.

But I've never experienced the whole Valentine date thing.

One day.

So I went to Publix yesterday. I was taken on a mini tour of the store

Was introduced to some of the sales associates

Some of them didn't look too welcoming

I was told I would be staying there until 12 at night

But I left around 6.

Today I have to go from 3 to 12 at night. 

Maybe I'll get out at 6 again? lol

I just don't want to be on my feet all freaking day.

I  know it's more money so I need to suck it up but still

This is my second job and I can tell it's going to be madness. 

You know that giving up feeling?

It's increasing

I can't count how many times they told me the Deli is the hardest department in the whole store.

Sigh

I guess I'm spending my Valentine learning how to use a meat slicer..

Nice.

First Day

These Mondays really sneak up on me.

Today is my first day at my new job.

Publix!

I'm excited yet nervous.

My weekend was pretty busy.

On Saturday and Sunday I had to go to Boca to the orientation.

Saturday's class felt like a long history lesson.

All we basically discussed about was the founder of Publix and so on and so on..

Sunday was a bit more interesting, or I just wasn't as tired as I was for Saturday's class.

Sunday's class was all about safety hazards and such.

Each class was about 6 hours each.

I was so pooped by the time I got home, I just crawled into bed and played my video games.

I was told that the orientation classes were part of my training and that I get payed for attending.

:D

That;s 12 hours right there.

I get payed 8.50 the hour

so thatssss...

 102 dollars!

Yayy, I miss having money lol.

Let's not forget about Friday.

On Friday I didn't really have any plans. 

During the afternoon, my friend Jonathan tells me that he's going to this nightclub called 

The Manor

and that I'm invited.

So I was like hell yeah I want to go.

That night was pretty fun, I saw a lot of familiar faces and danced a lot :)

So cross your fingers for me today.

Hopefully it will go well..

AND FAST!

Got the Job

I'm currently employed!!!!

I got a job at Publix in the Deli department. 

Though I'm excited to work again, I'm not excited about how tired I'm going to be.

I will be working part time, but I feel they needed someone in that department so badly they're going to give me as much hours as they can.

As of now, all I know is I start my first day on Monday.

From 3 to close

which is 11 at night I think.

So school from 8-1

Then work 3-11

Wow

I don't want to see anyone's that day because I will be 

soooooooo cranky lol.

Knowing I have to wake up early the next day.

Short and Sweet

What do you call James Bond in a bath tub?

Bubble 07 ;)

Happy Thursday!

I'm running on about 3 hours of sleep. 

Something was just not letting be get to sleep last night.

I'm pretty excited about the weekend,

tomorrow my mom and her husband will be going to Miami and staying there for the night.

I won't throw a party buttttt let's just say tomorrow shall be a fun day :)

Then on saturday and sunday I have my Publix orientation.

Then I believe I start my training, which is when I start getting payed!

$$$$

I'm going to be keeping busy with school and now work. 

I dont know if I can handle that.

I mean I wake up for class at around 6-6:30

and I just get so sleep I just want to go home and pass out on my bed.

They're probably going to have me start work right after class, 

which is at 1.

You gotta do what you gotta do right?

Chloe :)

My night guard ♥

Swaggggggg -___-

I dislike the way people think sometimes.

I was told I was being a follower because someone wore a shirt I liked, then I bought it for myself.

Soooo?

If I like it, I'm going to get it. Simple as that.

Just because someone else has something I'm going to buy,

does not make me a follower.

Just makes me a buyer lol

But seriously, that's ridiculous.

I don't call people followers when rappers come out with phrases or mottos

and people use them like every day on their facebook statuses or tweets.

Remember the whole "SWAG" phase?

Holy crap I could not stand that.

For every little thing, people would say swag after every statement.

"Just stole a candy bar from the store.. Swag"

"Just took a shower.. Swag"

Like seriously?

So after the "swag" phase, this rapper Drake came out with his new album and one of his songs is called "The Motto"

In this song he would say YOLO is the motto.

You Only Live Once

I have to admit I follow that motto, but I don't advertise that I do.

You only live once, so live it the hell up by taking opportunities and chances.

Not by saying YOLO everyday.

People are loco lol

So away with the negativity, this week is going by pretty quickly.

I started playing COD (Call of Duty) Modern Warfare 3

I was playing online so basically I got my a** kicked.

I did better than what I expected though :)

I was forced to play, but now I'm pretty much hooked.

Once I start something, it's a must that I have to get better.

Game on ;)

Kids? What kids?

Ever felt like you were running on empty?

Just so completely tired, you can close your eyes and just dream away.

That's how I feel right about now.

I am such a cranky person in the morning, I hate being asked so many questions.

My mom was bugging me before class.

She kept asking me all of these non-important questions.

My number one question that just makes me giggle but angrily is

Mom- "Kyle?

Me- "Yes mom"

Mom- "Are you up?"

I mean I answered, yes I'm up!

But anywho,

Yesterday I was asked a random yet interesting question.

I was asked if I ever wanted children. 

Of course I do, but not any time soon.

I believe I'm not ready to have that much of a responsibility

I want to wait until I'm settled in with a career, a wonderful home and married.

Now as for the baby making, it's either going to be adoption or have someone carry the baby for us.

But who knows what will happen in the future.

I get nervous around babies.

I don't want to hurt them, they look so delicate.

That nervousness goes away when they turn like 2 or 3.

I was nervous to hold my niece when she was born, I didn't want to hurt anyone's feeling not wanting to hold her but I couldn't help it.

 I think they are precious and adorable, but I don't know what it is that get's me nervous around them.

Especially in public, if a random child came up to me and was just staring at me,

what do I do?

I wouldn't mind talking to him or her even though they would probably have no clue to what I am saying, 

But I don't know how the parents feel about that, they might attack me.

So would I like to have children, yes.

Am I ready for all of that? No.

I do think I will make a great parent one day though 

:)

Interesting Weekend

Ohhhh Monday.. Why have you snuck up on me so quickly?

So the Giants won. Yay!

I'm not really a football kind of guy but I am from New York so I do represent my state ;)

I didn't really watch the whole game.. I only watched it when it was during the 4th quarter and about 59 seconds left in the game. Lol

But I was told the Patriots were winning most of the game. 

So I think it's pretty cool how back in '07, the Giants were against the Patriots that year.

And it was about the same concept, the Patriots were in the lead and then the Giants made a comeback and won the Superbowl. 

Pretttyyy awesome. 

I had a get together yesterday so I enjoyed my Superbowl Sunday.

Oh man, I just remembered.

People that take football seriously.. like over the limit.

...

I don't know why, but I canNOT be around them.

You say one little thing about their team and it's like they turn into the Hulk.

Sheesh

I went to go see that Chronicle movie on Friday.

Ehh, it was cool but it was very predictable as well.

It's about these one teen, his life is just horrible.

His mom is deadly ill, his dad is abusive and he is bullied in school.

He starts to record his life using video camera.

Him and these two others boys find a big hole in the ground near a rave they went to

and of course they wanted to be curious and look inside.

They find this alien-ish looking rock thing and that's glowing. Next thing you know the camera started spazzing out.

You barely saw what was happening to them.

Then the kid got a new camera cause lost it down that hole I guess.

So they started recording themselves using their power, which was telekenises.
The boy who has the messed up life is the stronger one.
Basically in the movie they show they can fly, move things with their minds.
The stronger boy started getting evil. It reaches the point that he needed to be stopped, as in killed :/
Sooo yeah, it was pretty cool. 

So it's Monday, fresh new week.

Hope it brings nothing but good things and surprises :)

Peace out!

Friend or Acquaintance?

Happy Friday everyone!

I have an interesting topic to talk about today.

Friends

What are friends?

Are they just someone you know? Someone you can trust?

Me, I don't have much friends. I like it that way, I keep acquaintances.

I think some people take friendships too far. Ever had someone who you usually do not speak with, but they talk to you when they need something. Yeah, that's not a friend.

In high school I didn't need friends. I had classmates.

Maybe I'm just weird, but everybody is different.

The only people I would consider friends are my actual best friends, which I consider family.

Friendship is based like a regular relationship, trust.

It's hard to trust people. People think they just earn my trust on the spot.

HA!

Don't make me giggle.

I'm a trustworthy person, but are you?

 Moving from New York, I lost touch with basically everyone I went to High School with.

I was told before I graduated that after High School I wouldn't be friends with some of the people I was friends with, but I wasn't expecting to lose touch with everyone.

I mean I did my part. I tried my best to keep in touch just to at least let people know I'm still alive, but I guess everyone is too busy to just say hi.

That's one thing I cannot stand. 

When someone sends me a text or a comment on Facebook or some sort, and they call me a stranger...

Really?

Communication works both ways, do not try to play me.

But on the brighter side, less people to worry about right?

I mean would you rather have to listen to other people's problems with the more friends you have?

I don't know maybe I'm just being mean here.

Anyways, I don't wanna leave this blog on a bad note..

Cause it's Fridayyyy :D

Meaning I get to sleep in tomorrow!

*Throws confetti into the air*

Everyone have a fun and safe day.

♥

Who am I?

So yesterday was pretty much an eye opener for me..

I have this really bad habit that if I like someone, I immediately look at all the positives and boom, I want to be in a relationship. Like more than a friendship.

I don't know if it is a habit but it just happens to me and I can't control it.

It sucks because I know that can totally ruin any type of relationship with someone.

I've been friends with someone for almost a month.

I find him to be really cool, fun and interesting.

I like spending time with him.

What I noticed was I wanted to keep spending time with him.

I remember him telling me that I should know and like who I am before I like someone else.

In the beginning, I wasn't really looking for a relationship.

I've been hurt too many times in my past.

Something about him really caught my eye though.

I felt nothing but positive things around him.

So then my emotions just started going crazy like a roller coaster. I started to really like him.

I didn't know if he felt the same so why not ask him.. right?

I mean, there was a "little" bit of alcohol in my system.. so I couldn't really hold it in.

I asked him "Am I too clingy around you?"

He answered by saying "No but I do feel like we need to take things slow."

I give him 100% respect for answering that question truthfully.

He could've just said no, leading me to think maybe I'm just over thinking things.

He mentioned "I don't want it to be like if I were to ask you out right now, you'll say yes."

Which I would have..

And I totally agree, it shouldn't be like that. 

I got pretty scared that night, I thought he was going to stop talking to me.

So when I got home, I just did nothing but thinking.

I kept blaming myself, but in the end it was how I felt.

I realized I needed to back up a bit and let life take it's course.

A few weeks, as in yesterday, we hung out after my class.

I'm not going to lie, a little bit of those feeling were coming back.

As we were hanging out, I couldn't help but feel something was wrong. I asked him and he said he was tired, which he probably was but I felt something else was up.

As I was trying to be flirtatious, I hear the word "obsessive" come out of his mouth.

I felt offended.

It just led me to think maybe I didn't change, maybe I'm still all over him.

I felt disappointed in myself.

He told me how he felt. It was hard for him to explain, which is reasonable because I have a hard time expressing how I feel.

He told me he doesn't really know who he is yet and he's not ready for a relationship.

I don't blame him. If that's how he feels, then it is what it is.

And I'm not going to lie, part of it is my fault because I like to talk to him every day. 

And if I don't hear from him, a feel a little down. Not too down though. I just like talking to him.

So, basically everything was let out in the open. Which is good.

It led me to think maybe we do need to do our own thing, it's not like we're going to stop talking.

Like I said before, he's a cool person.

I have school and currently looking for employment, I should start focusing on my life and where I'm headed. 

To find myself.

Big Change

One of the biggest changes I had to make in my life was moving from New York all the way down south to sunny Florida. Not only is the weather different, I live in an acreage area, I feel like a kid lost in the middle of the forest living here. 

There are so many trees, ditches filled with dirty water, who knows what's in there. I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining but someone can honestly commit murder and get away with it here. Seriously, they can kill someone, throw them either in a ditch or in an area with mostly trees and long grass and they would be fine. But let's not get carried away here. I do enjoy the heat over here. Rather that then be freezing right? The summers can be brutal though. 

Though I've only lived here for about a year and some months. Oh and don't get me started on the drivers here. New York drivers aren't safe as much as any other drivers but at least they know how to drive and what NOT to do. I guess changing lanes and turning without putting your signal on is legal here. 

Who knew? 

So yeah, weather, drivers and palm trees would be the big difference here.

I do enjoy seeing palm trees; it feels very tropical being surrounded by them. I mean my dream is to live in California so I'm hoping to see a lot more in my future :).

Oh, yeah and my mom got married down here so basically I have another "family". 

They are wonderful people and were very welcoming when I first moved down here, don't get me wrong, but it is nothing but drama drama drama with them. Something new every single day.

Imagine living like that, coming to a world where you're involved in other people's problems every day.

I try my best to stay away from it.

Seems like the best way to stay away from it is literally staying away. I feel sometimes they think I don't like them. 

In New York, my family was close. We didn't go to each other's house like every single day just to sit and stare at each other’s faces and talk smack about each other though.

Is it wrong for me to say it gets pretty annoying hearing my doorbell ring everyday, especially during times when you just want to lay in your bed and relax? But nooo, Cubans just barge right in and say everyone's name very loudly like they didn't see them the day before. Lol

Like I said I like my mom's husband's side of the family, but it just makes me miss my New York family ten times more.

I'm Puerto Rican and Italian by the way, in case any one was wondering.
:D