Kids? What kids?

Ever felt like you were running on empty?

Just so completely tired, you can close your eyes and just dream away.

That's how I feel right about now.

I am such a cranky person in the morning, I hate being asked so many questions.

My mom was bugging me before class.

She kept asking me all of these non-important questions.

My number one question that just makes me giggle but angrily is

Mom- "Kyle?

Me- "Yes mom"

Mom- "Are you up?"

I mean I answered, yes I'm up!

But anywho,

Yesterday I was asked a random yet interesting question.

I was asked if I ever wanted children. 

Of course I do, but not any time soon.

I believe I'm not ready to have that much of a responsibility

I want to wait until I'm settled in with a career, a wonderful home and married.

Now as for the baby making, it's either going to be adoption or have someone carry the baby for us.

But who knows what will happen in the future.

I get nervous around babies.

I don't want to hurt them, they look so delicate.

That nervousness goes away when they turn like 2 or 3.

I was nervous to hold my niece when she was born, I didn't want to hurt anyone's feeling not wanting to hold her but I couldn't help it.

 I think they are precious and adorable, but I don't know what it is that get's me nervous around them.

Especially in public, if a random child came up to me and was just staring at me,

what do I do?

I wouldn't mind talking to him or her even though they would probably have no clue to what I am saying, 

But I don't know how the parents feel about that, they might attack me.

So would I like to have children, yes.

Am I ready for all of that? No.

I do think I will make a great parent one day though 

:)